Depressed & Disabled

On Ma 8th, twenty-two days ago,  rolled myright ankle on an uneven surface.  Leading to a severe sprain and a broken fifth Metatarsal bone.  Living in a small town and it being after 5:00 p.m. the only option for medical care was the ER.  Plus, I thought I might as well use my insurance before it is taken away by our 45th President.  (Aside:  I have insurance through the Exchange, also known as Obamacare.  Being a small business owner the option of affordable insurance has been a blessing, however, the new Healthcare Bill being presented will cut my accessibility.)

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At the ER, x-rays are taken and I am informed that I have a badly sprained ankle and a broken foot.  The doctor advised, “stay off your foot for 2 weeks and then slowing begin weight-bearing activities.”  No mention of, follow-up with your doctor.  My foot wth-4.jpegas wrapped and I was provided with crutches and a shoe that was two sizes too large.   I decided to get a second opinion and was told the good thing is that it is healing, the bad news is I have to stay off my foot for another 2 weeks.  When I return the doctor will decide if I need a bone growth stimulator.  He indicated that If I had come directly into him, he would have recommended surgery.  He says this break is in the “worst
possible spot” on my 5th Metatarsal bone.  Then I would have been off the crutches faster.  However, he is hesitant to do surgery now since it is healing.

So, I’m a very active person and this is really depressing me.  Now all I do is go to work and come home and lay around.  What makes this even more difficult is that between Robin and I, we have 2 good left feet, and 3 good hands.  This injury has really made it clear to us, how much I am needed in good health.  Of course, through this, 2 of our dogs have become sick with a stomach bug and are refusing to take their meds and our old lady, Precious, is on constant med patrol and needs assistance getting
up.  I th-3am not supposed to be lifting her, but sometimes I have too, because Robin only has one good arm.  We are both miserable and depressed.  We have come to the point where we both admit we need help.  We are both proud and want to do everything on our own, but this really gets to us mentally and physically.  Our families are busy with their own lives and live far away, so that isn’t much help.

Living in a home with Chronic Pain and Stroke injuries is very hard, but when you throw in the other person being injured that makes it ridiculously hard!  I feel like a “cry baby” even writing this, but it’s the truth!  We both feel “Broken”  and we are waitinth-2.jpegg for the tides to change.  Of course, some may say “what’s the silver lining?”  Well, I have learned that laying around all day and binge watching “Bloodline” is enjoyable.  I’ve learned to stop the little voice in the back of my head saying, “Get up and be PRODUCTIVE.”  I’ve learned that my feet are VERY IMPORTANT to me, which I already knew.”  I’ve gained more compassion for Robin and her Stoke injuries.  I have more insight into Robin.  She is a fighter!  She is does not want to give up!  She wants to live and be productive!  She has a drive that I often miss, because
I’m in my own world!  Think of this…she learned to walk again, talk again, and drive again!

Here I am with a broken foot, and you would think my world has ended.  It has changed for right now, and I’m trying to be a good patient.  I have also learned that we really do need help from friends and family and shouldn’t be proud to ask.  We are getting  better at accepting help!  It is hard on us, but we are trying to grow.

Here’s a special shout out to our wonderful neighbors, Patty and Tom Marler, Cindy Hudson and Bob Jeffries, and our new friends Joyce and Eric Knowles!  We thank you so much!

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